Some Edited Pictures

Thanks to my cousin(: I like them. Hopefully whoever sees this does too. She is like obsessed with picnik and all the other picture editing places. Lol

Well

Happy Birthday to me. I am 14 years old today(: I was born at 9:46 AM so right now, 14 years ago, I'd be about 2 1/2 hours old. 14 doesnt seem that old. Hmm. Maybe if I think I can remember being 2 hours old. Haha. :)

I think it's me

BUT this house is SOOOOOOOOOOOO hot. I'm so mad still. But that's okay. I like being mad at him.
I want to say this:
I remember what it feels like to have no dad. I remember the pain I felt. I remember everything. I remember being jealous of my brothers because they got to see him. I remember crying all night and I still cry. I remember wanting to hurt him. So bad he'll know how much he hurt me. I remember that feeling of someone not wanting you. I remember how my tears started like they are now. I remember not knowing anything about him. I remember. I really do and nothing will ever make me not remember. I have trust issues and I can't help that. Blame Jason. Just don't. Don't blame me. I've been blamed so many times.

Leo,

Mommy loves you more than anything. She wishes this wouldn't happen. But she can't help it. She wants whats best for you and she knows this isn't. Blame Grammy and Grampy though. They are the reason. You are my world. Before you, I can't even remember. You Cousin loves you and I'm sure your sister would've too. She would have been 6 now. But Grammy let her out. She never came back. She wasn't used to that, she was always inside. She was precious like you. You leo. You are my son. You are strong. You hold up when things are bad. You were born on the 18th of August in 2008. I love you baby boy.
Love,
Mommy.

To many tears and to much madness.

The weekend & week was full of being mad at someone, hating my life, and crying.

I made my dad mad. And then he told my mom and I got yelled at. When I get yelled at I cry. And talking about certain things makes me cry. Or I feel like killing myself or something. Or the person.

Hating my life? Tbh, I've always hated my life. As long as I can remember. Sure, I smile, I laugh, I make friends, but I bottle my feelings up inside. I don't tell anyone. And hating my life won't ever stop. I know it won't. There are points that I say I love it, but that lasts, what? 5 freakin' minutes?!

Being mad? Ohh. I'm still mad. But today was good. I went shopping. I'm turning into a girly girl. :O Not sure if that's good or not but I like being like this. And what I like, matters.

I jsut wanted to say this, I WILL NOT GIVE MY BABY UP.

My Baby(:

Everyone knows that I love babies. haha, well they should. I have One of my own. He'll be two next month. His name is Leo and he's orange and fuzzy.
The pictures are pretty crappy, sorry, They are from my phone. And I think two are from my old webcam.

Yeah,

I'm weird. I'm creepy. I'm everything you can imagine. But that makes me.
I'm proud of who I am and you can't bring me down.(:
no one can. I am opinanated and I can't help that. I always say what's on my mind and I say what I think of you.
But there are things, such as my past, i don't tell people right away. I don't trust easily. And when I finally trust or get used to someone, actually like them, thye or I go away. So I'm tired of that. I can't get close to anyone. Everytime I do you know what happens? They are GONE.
But i can't help it. I have to have someone to be with. I really do.

So laterrr.
Zach's party then I don't know. haha
8 more days I go to myrtle beach! cant wait to get out of ohio.

Copierrs. :/

Okay, Let me get this straight?
If you are going to copy me, I will get mad at you. If you copy me, I won't even CONSIDER being your friend. Let alone talk to you. I might be a bitch, but do you think I care? No, I don't. I don't care what ANYONE thinks of me. I only care what I think of myself. Copiers are lame. Copiers have no life. Copiers are retarded. Copiers are just UGH! if you read this, you know who you are. (:
So talk about me, I don't care. And I'm sure I could find many things about you and spread them around. (;
And this is really only one person I have a problem with. She knows who she is. She knows she copys me. I know many many things about her. That's one thing she knows. So really, don't copy me. Mkay? Mkayy.

Me and Hannah

I got my hair cut, but I'll post those pictures of just me in another posttttt.(:

YAY!

I got my hair cut!!! I love it, I'll post a picture or two or three or..haha, i think you get it. Let me know what you think. I'm still waiting for my mom to get done and then when we go home I'll tkae picures and upload them, I think we are getting Hannah first or she is going to walk over. I don't know but just wanted tot ell you all that I got my hair cut and that I love it. I've been saying since like April or May that I was going to get it cut, soooo now it is(:

Well,

I'm getting my hair cut! I'll have to post pictures soon. My mom is getting her hair colored, she always does, so I'm waiting until she has everything in it, then I'll get mine cut, and then we'll wait until her hair is done. Good thing I brought my laptop, or else I'd only have my phone. I'm going to make a new vlog, like a new start i guess. But I won't delete the old ones. I'll make the first one later, It'll probably have Hannah in it. (:

It's

SO hot in here. Ima leave. It's 11;39 PM and I havent't eaten anything all day. I'm not hungry though.

You have NO idea

How bored I am. There is seriously nothing to do here. I'm glad I brought my computer. I've been here for since MOnday and it's almost Thursday. getting my hair done tomorrow[hopefully] then Hannah's coming over; spending the night. Saturday I've got my brothers' 16th birthday party to go to and Sunday i'm going to Paige's 4 th birthday party and then Monday? I have no idea, along with the rest of the week.

SERIOUSLY?!

I KNOW people read my blog. But yet, no one follows or comments?
How do I know they read it? Well they tell me feedback and everything. So leave a freakin comment or follow me! Jeez. Not hard to ask to leave a comment.
If you follow me, I'll follow you.

Morningg!

It's 9:08 am here. I've been waking up early lately. Last night, I only woke up a few times, the other night I kept waking up. 3, 4, 5, 6, after 6 I just woke up. Soo let's see.
9 days until my birthday, I'll be 14, make sure you get me something. haha nah, just kidding.
Hm. nothing else to post.
not right now anyway. later, in about a month(;