So I got a new webcam, I'm moving, and nothing really interesting. lol

HAPPY POST..FINALLY!

So I got a new webcam today!
I will be making new vlogs. So watch out for them. haha

Happy Post?

I'm sorry. But I am just really upset over tons of things.

All I seem to do is complain.

Sorry but that's all I can think to do. So I will try and make this a happy post!
Uhmmmm....this will take a lot to think. Okay.
Well i started a baby challengee on sims 3. I made it on livejournal. But then my game started acting up adn I had to uninstall and reinstall it. No. Wait. that has a bad ending.

Uh.....Uhmmmmmm. I ate Mcdonalds today? Haha I guess that's good. I'm eating. OH I KNOW!
Sometime this week I got my laptop back from the shop! (:
Two good things. That's all I can think of right now, Sorry. :(

Sigh Sigh Sigh

My life is never good.

Some Edited Pictures

Thanks to my cousin(: I like them. Hopefully whoever sees this does too. She is like obsessed with picnik and all the other picture editing places. Lol

Well

Happy Birthday to me. I am 14 years old today(: I was born at 9:46 AM so right now, 14 years ago, I'd be about 2 1/2 hours old. 14 doesnt seem that old. Hmm. Maybe if I think I can remember being 2 hours old. Haha. :)

I think it's me

BUT this house is SOOOOOOOOOOOO hot. I'm so mad still. But that's okay. I like being mad at him.
I want to say this:
I remember what it feels like to have no dad. I remember the pain I felt. I remember everything. I remember being jealous of my brothers because they got to see him. I remember crying all night and I still cry. I remember wanting to hurt him. So bad he'll know how much he hurt me. I remember that feeling of someone not wanting you. I remember how my tears started like they are now. I remember not knowing anything about him. I remember. I really do and nothing will ever make me not remember. I have trust issues and I can't help that. Blame Jason. Just don't. Don't blame me. I've been blamed so many times.

Leo,

Mommy loves you more than anything. She wishes this wouldn't happen. But she can't help it. She wants whats best for you and she knows this isn't. Blame Grammy and Grampy though. They are the reason. You are my world. Before you, I can't even remember. You Cousin loves you and I'm sure your sister would've too. She would have been 6 now. But Grammy let her out. She never came back. She wasn't used to that, she was always inside. She was precious like you. You leo. You are my son. You are strong. You hold up when things are bad. You were born on the 18th of August in 2008. I love you baby boy.
Love,
Mommy.

To many tears and to much madness.

The weekend & week was full of being mad at someone, hating my life, and crying.

I made my dad mad. And then he told my mom and I got yelled at. When I get yelled at I cry. And talking about certain things makes me cry. Or I feel like killing myself or something. Or the person.

Hating my life? Tbh, I've always hated my life. As long as I can remember. Sure, I smile, I laugh, I make friends, but I bottle my feelings up inside. I don't tell anyone. And hating my life won't ever stop. I know it won't. There are points that I say I love it, but that lasts, what? 5 freakin' minutes?!

Being mad? Ohh. I'm still mad. But today was good. I went shopping. I'm turning into a girly girl. :O Not sure if that's good or not but I like being like this. And what I like, matters.

I jsut wanted to say this, I WILL NOT GIVE MY BABY UP.

My Baby(:

Everyone knows that I love babies. haha, well they should. I have One of my own. He'll be two next month. His name is Leo and he's orange and fuzzy.
The pictures are pretty crappy, sorry, They are from my phone. And I think two are from my old webcam.

Yeah,

I'm weird. I'm creepy. I'm everything you can imagine. But that makes me.
I'm proud of who I am and you can't bring me down.(:
no one can. I am opinanated and I can't help that. I always say what's on my mind and I say what I think of you.
But there are things, such as my past, i don't tell people right away. I don't trust easily. And when I finally trust or get used to someone, actually like them, thye or I go away. So I'm tired of that. I can't get close to anyone. Everytime I do you know what happens? They are GONE.
But i can't help it. I have to have someone to be with. I really do.

So laterrr.
Zach's party then I don't know. haha
8 more days I go to myrtle beach! cant wait to get out of ohio.

Copierrs. :/

Okay, Let me get this straight?
If you are going to copy me, I will get mad at you. If you copy me, I won't even CONSIDER being your friend. Let alone talk to you. I might be a bitch, but do you think I care? No, I don't. I don't care what ANYONE thinks of me. I only care what I think of myself. Copiers are lame. Copiers have no life. Copiers are retarded. Copiers are just UGH! if you read this, you know who you are. (:
So talk about me, I don't care. And I'm sure I could find many things about you and spread them around. (;
And this is really only one person I have a problem with. She knows who she is. She knows she copys me. I know many many things about her. That's one thing she knows. So really, don't copy me. Mkay? Mkayy.

Me and Hannah

I got my hair cut, but I'll post those pictures of just me in another posttttt.(:

YAY!

I got my hair cut!!! I love it, I'll post a picture or two or three or..haha, i think you get it. Let me know what you think. I'm still waiting for my mom to get done and then when we go home I'll tkae picures and upload them, I think we are getting Hannah first or she is going to walk over. I don't know but just wanted tot ell you all that I got my hair cut and that I love it. I've been saying since like April or May that I was going to get it cut, soooo now it is(:

Well,

I'm getting my hair cut! I'll have to post pictures soon. My mom is getting her hair colored, she always does, so I'm waiting until she has everything in it, then I'll get mine cut, and then we'll wait until her hair is done. Good thing I brought my laptop, or else I'd only have my phone. I'm going to make a new vlog, like a new start i guess. But I won't delete the old ones. I'll make the first one later, It'll probably have Hannah in it. (:

It's

SO hot in here. Ima leave. It's 11;39 PM and I havent't eaten anything all day. I'm not hungry though.

You have NO idea

How bored I am. There is seriously nothing to do here. I'm glad I brought my computer. I've been here for since MOnday and it's almost Thursday. getting my hair done tomorrow[hopefully] then Hannah's coming over; spending the night. Saturday I've got my brothers' 16th birthday party to go to and Sunday i'm going to Paige's 4 th birthday party and then Monday? I have no idea, along with the rest of the week.

SERIOUSLY?!

I KNOW people read my blog. But yet, no one follows or comments?
How do I know they read it? Well they tell me feedback and everything. So leave a freakin comment or follow me! Jeez. Not hard to ask to leave a comment.
If you follow me, I'll follow you.

Morningg!

It's 9:08 am here. I've been waking up early lately. Last night, I only woke up a few times, the other night I kept waking up. 3, 4, 5, 6, after 6 I just woke up. Soo let's see.
9 days until my birthday, I'll be 14, make sure you get me something. haha nah, just kidding.
Hm. nothing else to post.
not right now anyway. later, in about a month(;

I hate acting like I'm happy.

I really do.
But you know, it's not my fault.
You should think I'm used to this.
I'm not. I get blamed for everything.
Even if I didn't do it.
I'm tired of this life.
When can I get rid of it?

Wanna know my favorite song?
Then click on my favorite song
It reminds me of...him. :S :S

Yeah uhm.

My vlogs are NOT uploading. I have 8, 9, and 10 ready! :S

New camera.

I can't have it until my birthday so my vlogs will have to wait until July 16th. hah and i probably will be busy then sooo. maybe a few weeks after. Soo just an update?

Well i would say this:
I'm out off school now. Since June 7th and I graduated on the 2nd of june. a week ago today actually. and nothing much has changed. Now for the Q&As!

Q.i love watching your vlogs..how did you get your webcam get broken?
A.thanks..they arent anything special. hah and I'm not sure

Q.When do you plan on making the next vlog?
A.idk.

and there are more but tbh, i have to go. pmsl

No more vlogs??? :O

Indeed, it's true. No more vlogs/blogs. :( My webcam is broken. Sooooo....
Until I get a THIRD oneee!

SEVENTH BLOG POST!

me and cheyenne...Lol ADVICE: NEVER PUT A HOT STRAIGHTNER IN YOUR MOUTH!! send feedback, leave comments, the usual..blahhhh

SIXTH!

sorry, i didnt upload this last night.

FIFTH BLOG POST!

I will post one more before I get my shower. Since I got questions from people from MSN(again) Lol

FOURTH BLOG ENTRY!

MORE QUESTIONS. weirder too

THIRD BLOG ENTRY!!

I just got more questions(edit) so I will make a fourth video(edit) The questions i just got are weirdddd. (edit) Uhm..the second question is weird..Lol something that has NOTHING to do with this. I love making these. Ima have to do this more often. FEEDBACK PLEASE! (: Do it and I'll love you foreverrrrrr(:

SECOND BLOG ENTRY!

Second in the "series" of "Ryann's AH-MAZING blog!" hah enjoy people. LEAVE FEEDBACK!!

FIRST BLOG ENTRY!(;

THis is my first entry to my new series of blogs, "Ryann's AH-MAZING Blog!" Soooo uhm enjoy..It takes forever to upload so leave feedbackk! Questions? I'll answer..Send them to my email or leave a message. (:

Hiii.

It's beena while. I've been busy and stuff. I'm a little upset. But what's new? Nothing. Ugh.

Good Afternoon.

How's your day so far? My day is pretty good,. I got garfield a collar to make him more handsomer. haha. Well...Let's see.
Tomorrow I won't be on.

VIDEO!!

didnt work..

grr,

after HOURS of sitting here, my video didnt upload. >:S I'll uplod it on youtube and out the link here?

Just a video.

I WAS bouncing on my knees because there were little kids and I didn't want to like fling them off. :L that day was pretty fun. haha. This is the 2nd time I'm saying this, it's taking FOREVER!!! HURYY UP NOW!!!!!!!!!!! hehe..You can tell i'm real patient on the computer. :L:L

Me holding Lily's ears up. Guess what kind of pupper she is?












My baby. Doesn't he look like me? Most people say he looks like his dad but...



LOL

Good Afternoon.

Enjoying your day so far? Good or not good, whatever is the appropriate wording. Haha.
I am, I guess. I think I'm going to eat my popcorn, my cheese kind.
Lol

Night People.

Who ever reads this. Then Night Night.
I'm so tired, And garfield is waiting for me.
I'll be posting some new pictures soon.
So keep checking here during the next week or two.
I'll only post pictures on weekends partly because,
I upload them to my grandma's computer
and I'm not here on weekdays.
(:

Blahh.

I'm sooo bored.
Blah.
come make me unbored. Lol

Just thought...

This was last winter, at the choir concert. Well it was before or after the concert. In my room. Lol

Welcome...

...to my boring life as a teenager. :D
I made this like last year and never really cared to really fool with it. So I am going to now.